even when I’m so scared i don’t know
what to do
your chin and cheeks and nose are still so quiet
when you sleep so deeply i get scared,
i get scared.
i check your chest to make sure
and i feel like dying right now just to
postpone my awakening
your hair points in the middle like a v
they call it a widows peak
and sometimes when you sleep i want to cut it off
because the idea of being your widow
makes me weep
makes me feel
inside it’s awakening.
(written for Andrea Hawkins (my now wife) in 2015).